Executive Dysfunction Canvas Print

This is a tough one and maybe the hardest thing I deal with. My brain takes the simplest tasks that I need to complete some days and twists it into a monumental undertaking. 

The mere idea of getting up, let alone trying to do whatever work or task needs done feels so far away and overwhelming. The more I think about it the more my brain starts to shut down and sometimes shuts my body down into wanting to sleep or just tune out.

The results sometimes are mere annoyance by others, but sometimes can lead to a chain of catestrophic events. It makes me feel lazy and often worthless. Many years ago, I worked two jobs and went to school. 

Now just mowing the yard or even taking out trash feels so overwhelming some days I have a near panic attack just trying to get going. I am getting better at overcoming it, but there are bad days and it frustrates everyone around me, myself the most. 

This painting to me exhibits what its like with any task and how the consequences reaches out to everything around me.